Sealed with a Kiss

Had a conversation with mom about my relationship with him, my goals for the future, her aspirations for the five of us, her relationship with dad, their retirement, my reponsibilities as their child & my siblings' older sister, the future grandkids & death...

There's something different about laying it all out with mom as opposed to me just "knowing" myself. Ask me what I want, where I want to be, where I will be & when will that be, & I will tell you in a heartbeat without a shred of a doubt. With mom / dad, the notion becomes sealed and it feels like from here on, it is all set in stone.

I doubt I'm the first or last one who feels this way when it comes to sharing one's intentions with the parent/s. Every side & the potential of each notion is thought out carefully and compared against the realities of the situation for then, now and the future before the final presentation is given to the one who gave birth to my conscience. Having the parent whose presence will be felt physically or merely in mind from here on to oversee my journey on the path of which I myself have chosen & in me knowing all of that prior to my sharing with her, reinforces my belief that this is truly what I desire for myself.

She approves. This means that so will he, naturally.

I derive much comfort in knowing that they trust my judgment and they believe in the potential of my ability. The fact that they are able to see how much it means to me enough to want to see my side of the story - I am content.

Hence comes the next step then: my working towards it.