An afternoon with Sadie

I looked at her from across the desk.
Parted my lips slightly and was about to say something to refute her.
The statement she had made earlier.

Somehow, I hesitated. Reined myself in...and within that split-second reflected upon what I was about to say. & what it would mean, had I have said it.

"But...?" she asked. Fully expecting me to counter her, only without judging.

The beauty of it, is that she is always ready to listen, without needing others to conform to what she thinks is "supposed to be" in terms of her worldview. She, who is one of those rare few who personally holds fast to her own principles whilst believing also that everyone is entitled to be who we are.

"... but nothing dear. Carrying on would only have meant that I mention a scenario which is completely irrelevant to our current topic of discussion simply to justify a refutation of the statement you made earlier. Even if what I said had made sense, it would only mean that I was trying to deflect the truth on the nature of what you said about about my situation. As you had made your point in relation to the specific nature of my circumstance... all that is left now is to say nothing and admit its truth.
However difficult that may be."

*smiling* "This is what happens when you put two psych students together huh?" she replied.

& that was that.


The ironic thing is, I don't even remember the "something" which I was about to say to deflect the truth in the first place. Which makes it seem so insignificant now. Only, that would be a fallacy. Arresting the workings of the ego defense mechanism, is not so simple especially when it is we who remain as our primary judge.